by HL - A former service user

I slowly went astray and eventually got addicted to drugs. During that period, I was exhausted both mentally and physically.

I suffer from mental health needs. For the past ten years, I have been wrestling with my illness but only recently have I admitted to it. Maybe accepting the fact that I am mentally ill is not easy and therefore I didn't positively face up to my problems.

I can still remember when I was full of hope. At the time, I had just arrived in England in December, 1980. My father was a boss of a restaurant and my mother, sister and I were living in our own house. We were quite well off. I started looking for a college and there was one nearby. Unfortunately, my English was poor and the college did not accept me. So I studied English only until I improved and reached a higher level. I wanted to apply for a university place and further my education.

However the good times did not last long. About a year later, my father passed away due to serious illness. Our family had lost our mainstay. I had to quit studying and look for a job. At that time, I was still young and could not distinguish right from wrong. I easily got to know friends whom had a bad influence on me.

I slowly went astray and eventually got addicted to drugs. During that period, I was exhausted both mentally and physically. I eventually developed mental illness. For over ten years, I had to take medication everyday to control my mental illness.

Fortunately through my family and friend's advice and support, I woke up to reality and began my life anew. I hope this is a lesson to all who hear my story; I sincerely would like to encourage everyone not to waste time but to face reality in a positive way.

 


我的故事

作者:HL

我一直被心理問題困擾著。在過去十年我都與疾病對抗,但是到了最近我才承認自己是病人。也許要接受自己有心理病這個事實真的不容易,所以我從來都沒有正面的面對這個問題。

我還能記得那時候我曾經充滿了希望。那是1980年的12月,我剛剛到達英國。我的父親是一家餐館的老闆,我的母親、我的姐姐和我都住在我們自家的房屋裏,境況還算富裕。我開始尋找學校,而正好有一間學院在我家附近。不幸的是,我的英文很貧乏,所以學校並沒有錄取我。於是我一直學習的就只有英文,直到我的英文進步了,到達了一個比較高的水準。接著,我就打算報讀大學。

然而,好景不常,大約一年之後,我的父親因病過世了,我們也因此失去了經濟支柱,我只能放棄讀書去找工作。那時候我很年輕,還沒能力分辨對與錯,我很快就認識了一些對我有壞影響的朋友。

我慢慢地誤入歧途,最後還對毒品上了癮。那個時期,我感覺身心都疲憊不堪,最後我就患上了心理病。在超過十年的時間裏,我每一天都要依靠服藥來控制病情。

幸好,透過家人的忠告與支持,我在現實中醒悟了,並開始了我的新生活。我希望我的故事對所有人來說都是一個教訓。我真心誠意地鼓勵大家不要浪費時間,並且要以正面的方式面對現實。